Oh, Bittersweet Rejection

SO, I wanted to answer a question that many of you (try 10,000) had:

“What was it like facing such a big rejection, how do you feel now,  and can you give me tips on how to recover from mine?”

So, if you haven’t been following along on Instagram or Facebook, I was rejected from Stanford University. Admittedly, a lot of my friends were shocked at how well I handled the “no” from Stanford, and understandably so.

 Since the age of ten, I’ve thought Stanford was meant to be. For the last three and a half years, I kept that school in my sights and being the stubborn person I am, I refused to consider other schools because I believed in my heart that I’d be there as an undergrad. I had visited multiple times, I spent over $400 on merchandise (my bank account still hates me), and I felt “at home.” Truthfully, though, from the minute I decided to apply to a school with a 2% acceptance rate for transfers, I knew that I was playing Russian Roulette and that NOTHING was guaranteed. So I employed the old saying, “hope for the best, but prepare for the worst” and for me, it helped tremendously. I pride myself on being a positive influence for others and myself, but about two weeks before admissions decisions were released, something in me was telling me that this wasn’t going to turn out like I’d always dreamed it would, but I still had a glimmer of hope left. Despite that little bit of hope, however, I submitted my Statement of Intent to Register to UC Davis WITHOUT knowing Stanford’s decision. Mind you, I had no idea what the school looked like or how accessible it would be. There was just something about it that drew me in and it was one of the easiest, most “on-a-whim” decisions I have made thus far.

A week later, Stanford’s decision came in at exactly 3 o’ clock, which is the time they said decisions would start coming in. I had already been rejected from Berkeley and UCLA, so I knew that when a decision comes in right on the dot, more often than not, it means bad news, but I still held onto that very last bit of hope:

Dear Miranda,

I am very sorry to inform you that we are unable to offer you admission to Stanford University for Fall Quarter 2015.

And just like that, it was over. As I continued reading one of the nicest rejection letters I’ve ever received, I began to cry. I had spent so much of my childhood/ adolescence, as well as three years of my adulthood, preparing myself for the day my dream would come true and it didn’t happen. I’ll be honest, I was crushed. I’ve been through some pretty heart wrenching ordeals, but this… THIS beat them all, guys. It was like a bad break up and Stanford was saying, “It’s not me, it’s you”… except it had nothing to do with me. Once I calmed down, I started to look back to when this journey started and I came to the realization that I may have been rejected, but man, I have come so very far. I did everything I could and that was enough for FOUR OTHER AMAZING UNIVERSITIES. And that, my friends, was good enough for me.

Once I had washed my face, I looked in the mirror, smiled, and said, “Cheers to another adventure! UC Davis it is!”

A lot of people have commented on the fact that I handled this so well, but that’s where you guys come in. All of you have seen me post on social media and have been avid supporters of Stanford, and many of you had no doubt in your minds that I’d be a Cardinal next year. I feel I owed it to y’all to be open and honest about how I felt. Handling this publicly has been a blessing because it’s taught me to have strength in the face of something so uncertain. I constantly tell all of you to stay positive in the face of tragedies and adversity, and it was time for me to practice what I preach, so from the minute I decided on UC Davis, I immersed myself in the school, I have been researching and reading, and watching videos. As I continue researching, I believe Davis is where I was supposed to be all along. It is absolutely amazing and I can’t wait to be living there soon!

For those people reading right now who’ve either been rejected or are afraid to face it, here’s my advice to you:
No matter what happens or what you think will happen, go for that dream job or dream school. If it’s a dream and something that means something to you, let nothing stop you. Whether the outcome is what you want or not, remember your worth and have faith in your abilities because if you have that, you have everything you need to succeed at wherever it is you go!

Over the next few days, I will be visiting Davis and checking everything out! I can’t wait to share the experience with you!

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